I had this weird dream last nite that M was getting married on the same day as L and I couldn’t decide whose wedding to attend and I ended up not attending either and of course they were both upset at me. Was retarded because I was bridesmaid for M’s wedding so it makes sense that I would have chosen hers. Anyway it’s a stupid dream because they’re both already married. >.>

I went to Springacre park today and got totally lost. *curses her gps* Why don’t you register Lake as L-A-K-E not Lk. It would have saved me a lot of hassle. I went around in circles for awhile. Well whatever, I marked it for next time but still… lesson in aggravation I need thee not.

I saw Pamela there and she asked me if I was going over to Liz’s for game night. Not sure I want to. I’m so over that whole board game thing. I used to be really into it but I just don’t know anymore. Drinking and board games probably won’t bode well for me. I’ll end up acting like an idiot x I’ll probably end up going though. What else is new -_-

And small world… I saw Nancy there. We gossiped for a bit and she said she wants to go to Spooky Discovery Science on Monday. The others are going on friday but I was planning on skipping it. Monday though… works better for me so I might tag along with Nancy on Monday. I’ll see… Kind of feeling like crap today. Caught a cold, have a splitting headache with that gnawing pain behind the eyes, runny nose and sore throat. And I still went to a school function tonight. I met PTA prez and complained to her that I got a notice about PTA dues when I already paid. Problem is I paid in cash. >.> I don’t know how that will pan out but I’m gonna make a stink. This is the last time I pay anything in cash. I have no way of proving anything. I should have known they would be unorganized. They shouldn’t ask for things to be paid in cash when incidents like this happen. -_- I can’t trust other people to do their job right. That’s my lesson for the day.

So the issue with the opting out request came up. Nicky said that people thought it was worded poorly and that they might want to reconsider how they phrased the request for $25 donation. They missed the point and started telling her that according to psychologists, if you want people to donate money you MUST put a dollar amount. I kept telling myself to not get involved and to keep my mouth shut. Of course I didn’t and opened my mouth. Why do I do that? It’s like this inner struggle with myself. I keep trying to talk myself out of saying anything cause talking always ends up with me doing something I don’t want to do. I want to be low key and not get lassoed into anything. So yeah I spoke up and told everyone that they were missing Nicky’s point yada yada yada. Luckily nothing adverse happened to me but gawd I hate myself sometimes. I have no self control over my mouth. I’m already being targeted to do volunteering on stuff because I’m so open and talkative. I’ve managed so far to dodge and I’d like to keep it that way. So far the only thing I’m doing is Halloween party committee but boy do I come close so many times to getting lassoed into other things. I always want to say yes but I KNOW I really ultimately don’t want to do it. It’s like my inner slacker is fighting with my former type A personality. What do you know? I really AM schizo.

Tried watching Guns and Talks (K movie) last nite but started falling asleep within the first hour. I think I’m just sooo under the weather that I can’t concentrate on a thing. I finished cleaning the next half chapter of Rin too so it would be great if I could start editing but my mind is so all over the place I would probably end up pasting weird lines from gawd knows where so probably not a good time to edit.

Need a japanese editor… for the next eps la di da… pressure… where am I gonna pull one out from? I can’t remember what my grand plan was… I’ll have to mull over that a bit more… I’m sure I had a plan… ya… I’m sure I did… X.x