So I figured I would catch up on reading scanlations so I read Nana and Tenshi Nanka Janai – man I sooooo want to read more of both. Even though Nana totally depressed me. Sometimes I really think it’s better to do it chinnie’s way – wait till everything is scanlated and then read it. I really wish I could read japanese then I would totally buy it all and read it. I could buy the chinese ones but the way all the licensing craze has been going on … I really don’t want to buy two versions. I’ve already been burnt by quite a few titles that way where I end up having to buy double. I’d rather sort of wait it out and hope the stuff I like gets licensed then I can just buy the licensed version – problem solved. Nana totally made me tear – maybe I’m just very emotional but that whole Shouji cheating on her just really crushed me. I never used to be that sympathetic towards the person who got cheated on – I guess I was always on the other side. The way I figured it was that if a guy cheated on me he just wasn’t worth beans and I’d move on. But as I get older, I think I understand more what that person is going through. I really don’t know why I feel more for them either. Guess I was colder before about that sort of stuff. Now I sort of “get it” more, I wonder if it’s cause I’m out here without my family and so I feel sort of at loose ends, isolated and disconnected from everything and thus I feel more. Does that even make any sense? I really miss my family. I want to visit them. I thought about going there when Al goes skiing with Arapaho Indian tribe but I don’t know if I like NY in winter x Too cold. I’m really happy that Viv and everyone is coming to visit for christmas. I really miss family stuff. I guess I’ve always had so many family and friends around and now that I don’t I’m sad about it. I’ve made a lot of really nice new friends but it just isn’t the same. I want my old friends around. When you have that kind of history with people you just want to keep it.

Stella sent me a xmas card pic with her and her family. It really hit me then how much things have changed. Heck we even traded boyfriends before and now look at us, we’re both settled down. How crazy is that. Although, I have a feeling she still has that wild streak in her. Her hair is dyed reddish so it’s a small sign that she isn’t totally settled down lol. She’d probably say the same to me. She used to say we lived parallel lives. Maybe it’s true =P I’ll probably give her a call when I go back to NY.