I seriously want to vege and do absolutely nothing. I’m so tired these days. I just want to skip – I feel so awful about it too. I’m already out of school so shouldn’t I outgrow this temptation to skip activities that I’m suppose to go to? I just want to stay home and do whatever. Of course, I’m fine when I’m actually out but getting the motivation to actually go do those things – blah. I don’t even want to do these girls’ nite out things anymore even though I know they’re fun. I just want to be able to do nothing for once x Weekends are jam packed so I can’t do what I want then, and weekdays are jammed also. I really just want to get away but get away and stay home x Do I even make sense anymore? I don’t even want to go on vacation – it’s like I need a vacation from life.

Anyway I started trying to read “Memoirs of a Geisha” because I saw the trailer for it and it looked so cool. This is of course not the book I’m suppose to be reading for the book club. I did make an effort to go buy the book we’re reading this month which is “The Five People You Meet in Heaven” but I seriously balked in Barnes and Noble. That tiny book was $20.00. I was like no way in hell I’m gonna drop $20 for that book. And I looked it up online later and it was cheaper and on Barnes and Noble website too!! Where do they get off doing that anyway? It’s like they penalize you for buying the book in the store. Che~ So I ordered it from Amazon. I was annoyed. Anyway, it’s a thin book so I’ll probably be able to finish it in time for the meeting in late November. In the meantime I’m gonna try reading “Memoirs”. It sort of helps calm me down from this hectic life I’m leading at the moment. I’m seriously frazzled.